Just to clarify, it takes a lot to really make me angry. It’s not very easy to do but it was easily done
yesterday. I received a misguided
interoffice message stating “all Becky does is just repeat what her
dad says” pretty much implying that I
don’t think for myself and my father’s word is golden. I saw that and was fuming angry. Whether or not the sender was looking to pick
a fight or just accidentally sent it to me without paying attention as to who it
was actually going to. Personally I
think it’s jealousy of the close relationship I have with my father. Which
seems to be the case a majority of the time.
First of all, I am very close with my father as my sisters
are too. We each have our own special
relationship with him and are very protective of him. Second of all, he’s a very smart man. He pays attention to what’s going on around
him, what’s going on in the news and actually listens. He’s always been there for us when it seemed nobody
else was, is my sounding board and in some cases my confidant, has been into
politics way more than any of us has and I do value his opinion a lot more than
others. BUT I also do have my own
opinions, think for myself, do my own research and yes depending on what is
talked about will repeat what he says. Because
it makes sense and gets people thinking.
I DO NOT think his word is golden.
I’m very opinionated when it comes to certain things in life and thanks
to my childhood feel very strongly about certain things and make it known. That does not mean that they are my father’s
opinions. He does, however, feel very
strongly about the same things that I do thanks to the hell my sisters and I
were put through growing up. So we do
share certain opinions.
To the sender of the misguided message, I do feel sorry for
that person. I feel sorry for them
because they felt the need to belittle me to make them feel better about
themselves (that’s fine I have thick skin). I also think it’s very childish and pathetic
of that person to start talking shit that early in the morning. I’d like to say it was fun watching them
squirm their way out of it. If they are
miserable in their own life, then be miserable; leave everybody else out of the
misery or fix whatever is making you miserable! But it’s easier to wallow in the misery than
to actually do something about it. My
father has been a mentor to many of the people who have come in and out of my
sisters and I’s life. He’s a strong man
with much patience and has the morals and values that are really lacking
today. I’ve been called old fashioned
and do have those values and morals which I learned from my father that yes DO
DATE BACK TO THE 30’S because of my grandparents. I’m rather proud of my old fashioned morals
and values. Because that just means that
I DO NOT in any way feel entitled, feel the need to be included in everything
all the time, know the world DOES NOT revolve around me (as the sender of the
message once told me), am happy doing things alone, value a great work ethic that
is extremely lacking in today’s society and also value the friendships that I
do have as they have been carefully selected for those I want to keep
around. I have no time for drama nor do
I welcome it in my life. Not saying my
life is drama free, but there is very little of it. And if I do not want you in my life, you will
be excluded rather quickly. I’m
excellent at that as again, lessons learned from childhood. I do not need a hundred friends, do not need
everybody to like me and actually work for what I have. I am not fake nor do I need to be. If you like me great, if not I'm okay with that too.
OH and since this is MY BLOG. If you don’t like it, don’t read it. It won’t hurt my feelings. One last thing, if you don’t have anything
nice to say then keep your mouth shut as I don’t want to hear it.
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